I admit it, i have a stalker....well sort of...he's half girl, half boy, half my best friend, half total creeper who secretly is trying to kill me.... and he has three names.... can you guess who this mystery figure is?
Thats right, Ed, Ana, Mia.... whatever you like to call him, personally at this stage im going to call him Ed, becausee.... hes just been being a total creeper latley... like yesterday with my first purging session in awhile.... so very disappointing... i thought i was just falling back into anorexia rather than going back to BOTH eating disorders... urggg...oh ED... ur such a creep, I'm thinking I should get a restraining order in place.....
On a different note, today is going pretty well... actually ate almost what im supposed to... still not totally there but whatever, its an improvment as me and Ana have been pretty tight latley... Though it was kinda hard not eating anything at our cookout when i was trying not to restrict because nobody brought salad or veggie burgers so I, the sad little eating-disordered vegetarian just kinda sat around... the fact that there was nothing that wasnt once a cute little cow or pig for me to eat is rather alarming as my recovery-obsessed mother usually loads up on soy-sausages (gross by the way) hoping to get something down my throat... maybe shes finally given up on me... who knows?
-Sierra <3
It sucks when you have a history of purging, bingeing, AND restricting. Wouldn't it be so much simpler to just have one? It sucks. But that's the eating disorder... it likes to throw you off!!!!!!
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